Dienstag, 3. Oktober 2017

Chapter 7 & 8

Hellloooo and yeah finally back with another chapter. The whole time I didn’t have any idea about what I could write next but now I’m back with more ideaaas. (Listen to this song while you’re reading the story :Sambal - Aeroplane)
Enjoyyyy


The next day arrived. Finally Friyay (aka Friday and yay)!
When I came from school at 1 pm I immediately took a shower
I ended up changing my outfit 4 times and put on the first one. That’s where I began to be nervous. I thought: What should I tell him or ask when I see him

Damn this guy is already making me crazy and I haven’t even met him. Hopefully, this is not going to be awkward. I know he has a girlfriend but anyway I want to make him think: Damn she is fine! 
Punctual as I am (sometimes) I took my train at 2:30 pm to be at the football sports pub at 3pm. In the train, I thought about what I could say if I ran out of things to say. So I opened my notes on my iphone and a message popped up that said. “See you later😉”. I just thought how sweet. The whole time I sat on the train literally nothing came up in my head probably because I was too nervous. I went the stairs down of the train and my I could hear the sound of my heart beating as a really loud song. I had five minutes left to arrive at the pub so I ran being scared he could left before I arrived. I saw him at the bar ordering a huge glass of beer wearing a white shirt and his arms barely fit in because of his huge biceps. On his head wore a black cap. I only thought: After this day my head was going to explode because I was thinking 24/7 about him and the sound of my heart beating was extremely loud. Why did this dude ordered a beer when it is always 3pm? I rolled my eyes and walked passed to him. He got off the chair and hugged me. Gooseflesh all over my body. He scanned from the top to the bottom of my outfit. I was wearing a black t-shirt which I tied around my waist with a British school uniform skirt. I loved this school uniform/ grunge look. I was wondering if he liked the outfit or not. 

“I thought you would be late so ordered a beer because Liana was always late” Jake said
“It’s fine. Just drink it out as fast as you can” I told him while I stared into his eyes analyzing how many different colors and what kind of structure he had. 
“Hahaha. If I do so I will puke”
“I don’t care. I can help you finish it” 
“You don’t look like someone who drinks beer”
“I wouldn’t drink it. I would put into the sink” I told him while I winked
He got a smile all over his face
“I know my jokes are good” I laughed
Then I realized where we were again. I thought I was somewhere else with Jake somewhere nowhere. My brain gave him all of my possible attention it had. There were only his eyes and his voice and the rest wasn’t existing. I was shocked thinking about what he did to me. This was ridicules. 
15 minutes later…
“I’m happy to finally finish this. It wasn’t even good!” Jake made a face as if he would puke
“I told you I would have put it into the sink. Anyway let’s go now it’s getting late” I told him
When I ran out of things to say he just came up with a new topic or another thing he wanted to tell me. It was so… much fun with him just talking and laughing about stupid thing. All the time around him I could forget things I worried about, school and stress. I recognized a yellow stripe in his eyes on both ones. We arrived at the place he wanted to take me to and his mood went suddenly from happy and being weird to a feeling like someone just died in his hands. The place was deep in the woods and had a swing with dark/old roses around it. After he was searching all around the place he sat down on the swing looking sad and irritated. I was thinking about what I could do to improve his mood. I sat down on a stone in front of him so that I could talk face to face with him.

“Jake it’s totally ok to cry. You’re not less masculine if you do!” I told him after he turned his head to another side when he wiped a tear off his face.
He looked irritated in my face. Jake got off the swing looking at me and my heart raised up. He sat down next to me the whole time staring into my eyes. I suddenly felt his huge arms and head around on my shoulder. I felt so sorry for him because I could literally feel his pain inside me but I tried not to cry.





Chapter 8


I suddenly felt his huge arms and head on my shoulder. I felt so sorry for him because I could feel his pain inside me but I tried not to cry.

Jake looked at my face. He has never been so close to me. As there would only be a window between us. After he had watched my tear and swiped it off even more tears ran down my face. He took my hand and asked what wrong was by looking into my eyes. He used sympathetic words which made me comfortable crying infant of him. “I see you in so much pain. I feel so sorry for you Jake!”I admitted. After my words touched softly his heart he took me into his arms. His chest was as warm as a fire at grandma’s house in cold autumn days. The wind made a his sound and blew my hair into his face. A wonderful fairytale moment went wrong…

After he hugged me- Guess what?- I felt his lips on mine. I only thought: This is so wrong. I pushed him away from me. 
“Your lips smell like vanilla- he meant my lipstick-What is wrong?” while he put his hand on my waist.

“Look Jake. I don’t know what you’re trying to do but it’s more than inappropriate to kiss me while your girlfriend is missed for weeks” while I put his hand away from my waist.

“Louise. I’m sorry I felt so good around you. I had so much fun with you and you were so sad because of me so I had to do something to make you stop crying. I’m sorry. I screwed up. I won’t do it again.”

I stared on the ground thinking about what I should say. I thought I should say something positive before I would tell him something negative. I scanned in from the top to the bottom while he took his cap off trying to bring his hair back in shape looking sooooo gooood. 
“You’re a good kisser but I think you shouldn’t kiss me if you still love Liana. Don’t worry about it I will keep it with me. What happened has happened. I’m not angry and now let us forget what happened.” I hoped that he wouldn’t be angry now and he wasn’t- “Thank you and again I’m sorry Louise” while he threw a shy smile on his face. I wish he had kissed me because he loved me. 

Some days later I worked on my essay to get ready for finals. When I looked around to seek some inspiration in class how I could move on with this essay as all heads suddenly turned to the door. I thought: Why do they stare so I turned my head to the door when Lizard jumped into my arms.
“Hey girl!” You need to tell me what happened yesterday after school!” she talked really loud.
“It’s not that great actually” I admitted
“I still want to hear it. Meet me after school at 2 o’clock at the cafeteria and then we go to my place ok?” Lizard asked
I only answered a short “ok” because I didn’t want her to come late to class and then she left. 
In general, the school day was pretty boring but in school, you need to listen no matter what because college is not doing your grades based on just attending the class. Finally, the school bell ring and everyone included me ran out of the classroom as they would be followed by a brutal murder. On my way to the cafeteria, I saw Jake coming from his PE lesson all sweaty in his sport clothing half naked (without a shirt). I only thought: Why is he doing this to me. I looked down walking faster to the cafeteria without him seeing me. I was absolutely crazy to think that he wouldn’t see me if I wouldn’t see him. Then I heard this rough deep voice.
“Hey, Louise!” he said and added a smile.
“Hey” I waved my hand to support the greeting. When I almost got to the cafeteria I heard someone running towards me and my brain went off except for giving me an alarm to run away as fast as possible. 
“Louise!” He screamed so loud.
I turned around saying “What the hell?” and everyone looked at me. This guy took my waist from behind turned me around so that I faced him and pushed me closer to him. These ocean blue eyes. Jake stared into my eyes with an irritated facial expression. I didn’t know what to say.
“My dad told me this morning Liana’s dad is back in town. Let’s go there after school. I bet Liana was just in Paris and is back.”

Talking to Lizard would probably take me about 3 hours after that I would be free.
“Pick me up at about 6pm at Liz’s”
He let me go and gave me a thumps up. These fingers on a hand full of veines. 

“What’s that smile on your face?” Who did this to you?” Liz was wondering
The only thing I said was “Jake”.
“The fool who felt on his face in the cafeteria?!” she laughed so hard out of nowhere
“Common it was an accident” I stood there with my arms crossed over my breast.
The whole time I was at Liz’s I asked her what I should do because of Jake. But first, she wanted to know what had happened when I had a “date”(that’s how Liz described the day I met Jake at the sports pub and saw Liana’s fav place, even though it was only searching for evidence where Liana could be and nothing like a date!)
“He kissed me!” I admitted while being scared what she would say.
Suddenly she opened her eyes and mouth wide open. She was extremely surprised. First, she looked surprised and then irritated. She didn’t expect something near this to happen.
Lizard stood up. 
“Why did he kiss you when he still hasn’t found his girlfriend?” while she emphasized the word ‘his girlfriend’.
“He didn’t think about it and just did it maybe he felt lonely but actually I don’t have a clue”
“He was bored. His girlfriend is somewhere and he needed s.o to fuck with, in my opinion, ” Liz said directly what she thought and she was never ashamed with that but I didn’t expect her to say that.
“Ok. Now I feel like a side chick. Do you think he is fuckboy material?” 
“He could be. Find it out! I would like to know if there is a risk for you to be hurt”
“I know it’s very inappropriate but Jake is here the next 5 mins and will pick me up. We want to speak to Liana’s dad who is back in town. Honestly, it’s kinda weird the police didn’t tell us anything where Liana is. Are they actually still on this case?”
“Yes, you’re right they never reached us again!”
“I think I need to talk to Jake about what happened the last time. I’ll tell you tomorrow everything when I get to talk to Liana’s dad” I finished my sentence and the bell was ringing. 
“That’s probably Jake. I need to go” I gave Lizard a goodbye-hug and went downstairs in Jake’s arms(not really,unfortunately). I went downstairs and just said hello to him. I asked him if we could talk after we went to Liana’s and he just said ‘ok’. He rang 3 times at the door. The women with the Russian accent opened the door like when I and Lizard were here. 
“Ronald, your daughter’s boyfriend is here disturbing my pedicure!” she gave us a fake smile and went away. She seemed so arrogant and unfriendly as she walked away.
There he came Liana’s dad that I had never seen before. He looked like these average presidents. White short hair kinda old with a suit. Damn that businessman. 
“Hello, Sir. I miss Liana a lot. I hope you know where she is. I was looking for her everywhere”
The relationship between both two didn’t sound very close. Liana’s father seemed annoyed and looked everywhere except at us. He knew where Liana was. He only didn’t want us to know. 
“I am a friend of Liana. I’m… I corrected myself: “I mean we are very desperate and worried. The day Jake had an accident she was really heart-broken. I and my best friend drove her home. I’m begging for an answer” I hoped these words would let him tell us where Liana was. He needed a while before he told us.

“Nothing happened to Liana. She’s at a boarding school and she won’t be home for the next months. I need you both to go now” I didn’t get why he didn’t take more time to tell Jake, her daughter's boyfriend everything. Liana’s father was busy working or he didn’t like Jake at all wanted him to get in touch with his daughter. Liana’s father closed the door and Jake pressed his head into his hands was both released of his worries something has happened to Liana but also in a lot of pain knowing that he won’t be seeing Liana for a long time. I took his arm trying to get him away from Liana’s house. It would be nice at all to talk about what happened that we had a meeting so I decided to let him sit down first. I think he needed to realize that Liana went away with saying him goodbye. She was probably so sad that fake because she knew she needed to leave the town

Donnerstag, 17. August 2017

Chapter 6
Hellloooo and yeah finally back with another chapter. The whole time I didn’t have any idea about what I could write next but now I’m back with more ideaaas. (Listen to this song while you’re reading the story : Sambal - Aeroplane)
Enjoyyyy


The next day arrived. Finally Friyay (aka Friday and yay)!
When I came from school at 1 pm I immediately took a shower
I ended up changing my outfit 4 times and put on the first one. That’s where I began to be nervous. I thought: What should I tell him or ask when I see him

Damn this guy is already making me crazy and I haven’t even met him. Hopefully, this is not going to be awkward. I know he has a girlfriend but anyway I want to make him think: Damn she is fine! 

Punctual as I am (sometimes) I took my train at 2:30 pm to be at the football sports pub at 3 pm. In the train, I thought about what I could say if I ran out of things to say. So I opened my notes on my iPhone and a message popped up  “See you later😉”. I just thought how sweet. The whole time I sat on the train literally nothing came up in my head probably because I was too nervous. I went down the stairs of the train and my I could hear the sound of my heart beating as a really loud song. I had five minutes left to arrive at the pub so I ran being scared he could left before I arrived. 

I saw him at the bar ordering a huge glass of beer wearing a white shirt and his arms barely fit in because of his huge biceps. On his head he wore a black cap. I only thought: After this day my head was going to explode because I was thinking 24/7 about him and the sound of my heart beating was extremely loud. Why did this dude ordered a beer when it is always 3 pm? 
I rolled my eyes and walked passed to him. He got off the chair and hugged me. Goose bumps all over my body. He scanned from the top to the bottom of my outfit. I was wearing a black t-shirt which I tied around my waist with a British school uniform skirt. I loved this school uniform/ grunge look. I was wondering if he liked the outfit or not. 

“I thought you would be late so I ordered a beer because Liana was always late” Jake said
“It’s fine. Just drink it out as fast as you can” I told him while I stared into his eyes analyzing how many different colors and what kind of structure he had. 
“Hahaha. If I do so I will puke”
“I don’t care. I can help you finish it” 
“You don’t look like someone who drinks beer”
“I wouldn’t drink it. I would put into the sink” I told him while I winked
He got a smile all over his face
“I know my jokes are good” I laughed
Then I realized where we were again. I thought I was somewhere else with Jake somewhere nowhere. My brain gave him all of my possible attention it had. There were only his eyes and his voice and the rest wasn’t existing. 
I was shocked thinking about what he did to me. This was ridicules. 
15 minutes later…
“I’m happy to finally finish this. It wasn’t even good!” Jake made a face as if he would puke
“I told you I would have put it into the sink. Anyway let’s go now it’s getting late” I told him
When I ran out of things to say he just came up with a new topic or another thing he wanted to tell me. It was so… much fun with him just talking and laughing about stupid things. All the time around him I could forget things I worried about, school and stress. I recognized a yellow stripe in his eyes on both ones. 

We arrived at the place he wanted to take me to and his mood went suddenly from happy and being weird to a feeling like someone just died in his hands. The place was deep in the woods and had a swing with dark/old roses around it. After he was searching all around the place he sat down on the swing looking sad and irritated. I was thinking about what I could do to improve his mood. I sat down on a stone in front of him so that I could talk face to face with him.

“Jake it’s totally ok to cry. You’re not less masculine if you do!” I told him after he turned his head to another side when he wiped a tear off his face.

He looked irritated in my face. Jake got off the swing looking at me and my heart raised up. He sat down next to me the whole time staring into my eyes. I suddenly felt his huge arms and head around on my shoulder. I felt so sorry for him because I could literally feel his pain inside me but I tried not to cry.

Freitag, 4. August 2017

What I ate on 3 days Raw till 4 Vegan


Hi everyone. I decided to go on Raw till 4 because a week ago and another week ago I didn’t eat healthy and I felt really weak and dizzy. Besides that RT4 is way faster and easier when it comes to preparing a delicious and healthy meal. Below I’ll list what I ate on 3 days when I started Raw till 4 and I still didn’t give up because I want to see the results and of course I feel way better.


Day 1

 Breakfast





Lunch: summer rolls















 Snack




Dinner







Day 2 

Breakfast







Lunch








Dinner 


Day 3
Breakfast









Lunch






Dinner






 Day 3

I forgot to take a pic of my breakfast and lunch sry






 Dinner on another day